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ramblings of haechanfan who is not up to date on anything at all i feel like i fell off his lore around mid-2021? but once lhc gets you he gets you forever. so

the controversial ENFP to ISTP change

- i am very much obsessed with the one fan who pinned the blame on SM ent for this change because like. are they wrong but also yes they are but I feel like hc has internalized a lot of this on his own
- he has ALWAYS said that he’s shy outside of the group. I feel like the moment he trained at sm and debuted he was already taking steps away from truly becoming an extrovert
- waif a disclaimer that idk abt mbti im just talking
- anyways as i’ve said this is TINHATTING this is FOR FUNSIES which is why it’s on dw of all places…i think that hc dropping out of hs really hastened the process in this e > i transformation. from predebut infos we see that he works super well in his group and he continues to do well in group setting where he’s comfortable except that he really became too comfortable in this setting esp with regards to nct’s concept and his place in it
- since he is in both dream & 127 and have lately been part of a lot of the nct u lineups (from home, 90’s love, universe) he gets to uhhh present himself in different ways while never having to actually reestablish his place and self in front of them. obv he is not close to all the members, but they already know what hc is supposed to be like and since they are an extension of the group he’s already in, he does not need to exert himself?
- he ALLEGEDLY has idol friendships with sanha from astro except idk abt that anymore??? i feel like the pandemic has also hammered into the fact that he’s becoming more and more shy.
- i do think that haechan is not the only one impacted in this aspect > johnny and taeyong did mention recently that they feel nervous asking other groups to do their challenges and johnny says he’s shy outside the group. so tldr yeah it is sm’s fault for making nct the way nct is (lol)
- people like doyoung are so intentional in their way of becoming an idol-entertainer that he really does TRY to be entertaining outside of group contexts and it has definitely paid off! haechan, on the other hand, i feel like he does not see why he needs to exerts himself outside of his own circles because deep down he is a PERFORMERR not a full-package entertainer. he loves being the social nexus in groups he knows but it’s not really real to him outside of it like he simply has a barrier
- case in point the taemin idea vid…like TEN HAD TO COME IN AND BREAK UP SOME OF THE TENSION. obv hc is also a major taemin fangirl he is literally idol worshipping but uk
- another proof is that gaming show that he went on with ty like omfg baby is so socially awkward with strangers and painfully shy actually…
- this all leads to my next point

haechan’s vision for himself & confidence

- i think he is plenty confident in himself and his position as main vocal/lead dancer in both 127 and dream and also like aware of his “role” in both groups, socially
- however he is also veryy not confident in himself, as an individual celebrity?
- his first solo photoshoot, you can tell he is very nervous and he is not as vibrant in his personality with the staffs even as he is showered by compliments
- he sort of deflects when he talks about solo projects and reroutes things to his members, even as he IS working towards this route
- i think to be a soloist, you must also be able to fill a room by yourself and this room can be a stage or a variety show, and i don’t think haechan is quite at that point yet
- unlike mark, who is very comfortable in showing himself and his projects and is able to carry a variety show appearance alone
- haechan always fills out the stage and his stage presence is absolutely astonishing and people genuinely fade into the bg when he is Having His Moment (e.g., better than gold opening…nobody else has a chance of being noticed)
- however, this seems to happen because he outshines the other members in some respect and thus fills out the room. if haechan is alone, there is nothing to outshine but himself which i think is the problem hc is working to be solved. he needs to find a way to shine brightly, rather than outshining already present figures??? if that makes sense
- I do hope that like. he gets more than one chance to shine at variety shows and that he’s able to adjust himself to Life without My Members
- selfishly I kind of want his career trajectory be like. yerin baek or something. THOUGH HONESTLY haechan is a born idol like singer-dancer combo + crazy fanservice king, he isn’t as equipped as dealing with the entertaining bit of it when separated from his members so like, something more indie would be suitable except it literally wouldn’t. so haechan ig you’ll just have to get better 😭
- anyways this is all to say I’m kind of convinced he won’t be debuting as a soloist until at least half of 127 are enlisted and hc himself can perform entertainmently (not a word but u get it)

shippy bit

- actually idk what to put in here except to reinforce my fave haech ships
- nahyuck has always compelled me as one of the first hc ships i’ve read but the antagonism…mwah mwah mwah this is also related to my recent uhhh dabbling in reading hrpf where i’m huge on #rivalnarratives #antagonism but nh aren’t really rivals. uk
- markhyuck which is like. hc himself says it best —> forced soulmate. as in the universe will keep pushing them together and at the end they’ll always have each other and they’re both aware that this is not by CHOICE yet they will not fight it
- jaehyuck & jihyuck i feel like i ship bc i like those members but they also provide interesting dynamix with hc…jaehyun babying hc vs hc babying jisung u feel
- STAY WITH ME ON THIS ONE…ryuhae ?:7.!/‘smx i just find the rumors so funny but also like HC YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF IM DEAD? they would be cute though i’m excited when hc and/or ryujin reveal in 10 yrs that they were, in fact, dating.

when u are a dreamzen but also 127 is everything to you but you don’t even like half of 127’s members.

background : i joined the fandom during kick it but only got on ncity twitter during reload era and left the general fandom space during resonance part 2 era. so perhaps these are my outdated opinions…since then i’ve been simply lurking on priv happily.

FIRST OF ALL. this is all because dreamzens suck. like 127zens sucks too but in a different way. dreamzens are very unbearable and they are haters but not in the fun way 🙄 but the thing is dream overrides this by all being lovely and talented and sexy and fun (am person who is into the emotional manipulation). 127zens act like 127 is more than they are but 127 shall never reach dream levels of knowing each other and they sure are fun but they’re COWORKERSSS. it’s all lost in the soup because 127 (most of them) have known each other for so long. so they are Aware of each other.

second. it’s because sunflowers are insane. 127sunflowers and dreamsunflowers.

i’m rambilng the main point is i wanna state MY piece. can’t all of you be dreamzens who like 127. this is the ideal state of being for me. since, musically, got into nct through 127 music i simply cannot help but be <3__<3 to 127 a lot of the times. you can’t blame me since the first release dream did after i got into them was fucking reload. so yes 127 > dream in terms of music. but in everything else, DREAM IS SIMPLY THE BEST <3

i must also mention i am as old as a dream member so like the same ageisms of it all is important.

idgaf abt wayv unless it involves member i care about (great example! > 90’s love unit. love wintenyang top 3 wayv members). also if the pets are involved. like if you stan xiaojun seriously & genuinely then you have cognitive dissonance or smth but if you’re smart like me you think he’s a poor meow meow & hilarious and love the bella pics. dream r everything to me but 127 i care you except when i don’t which is when my 127faves (haechan, jaehyun, taeyong) are irrelevant. like it’s weird if you care too much about 127dynamics. what are these dynamics compared to dream. 127 has the most kpop group bond of all the units. the bond in which they are men who live together & work together.

also reason for my 127 soft spot : haechan. can’t help the fact that he’s my talented, pretty, sociable baby. he likes being maknae (but also likes being hyung way more. he simply likes the special privileges of being Baby without being the Ultimate Baby). they like him so much but ofc they do 💘💘💘

to put it simply I DO NOT UNDERSTAND how you can simply just acknowledge haechan in just one unit no he needs to be acknowledged all the time he is an attention whore like that!!! and sometimes u have to perceive other 127 members but i simply choose to do that with my picks.

feelings on 127 members (am kind of a hater)

- taeil : ambivalent. he is barely an idol to me. goes and does his job. clocks out when he’s done. in another life probably like a ballad singer no. at least he is talented and can sing like we love that for you taeil
- johnny : i dont see what you see in him for people to ult him. but i guess. you might as well stan a hollywood celebrity because like being american is his draw. but good filler member 👍🏼 has never unnecessarily pissed me off too bad. plus points : likes haechan.
- taeyong 💖 : my perfect idol. he is serving face and hardwork. i still do not care about kpop rapping so like he’s whatever in that sense but he is the perfect perfect CENTER like yes this is what kpop is all about. might genuinely be a nice person.
- yuta : never got over his misogynist allegations. relies on ships for his popularity outside of japan (sorry winwin and mark). still hilarious that he was in the from home unit like everyone simply knows it’s cause they wanted to have japanese lyrics and they couldn’t possibly use shotaro. go dude give us nothing.
- doyoung : he’s good. his voice is nice too. dance is whatever but dance isn’t his position so it’s a pass. feels like he could give everything up and just become an actor in the way that people would think jaehyun would. but likes singing too much.
- jaehyun : has no emotions since sm made him drop his maknae image (sorry jaehyun 😔). like genuinely fizzled out when winwin left. even worse after covid97. AND I STILL LIKE HIM! his face : classically handsome. his voice : SO NICE. clocks in and clocks out like taeil except still has a shred of idolsona. also he’s so handsome that he gets a pass.
- winwin : including him because fuck you that’s why. i have no strong feelings on winwin on wayv or 127 but i DO for sure know 127>wayv which is why i’m grouping this as such. very sorry to say that he can’t sing. he has good one liners and it should stay that way. needs more screen time. his face is of an angel. needs an acting gig soon because if he doesn’t his fans will advocate for more lines in songs. he’s lovely 💘
- jungwoo : it’s whatever to mee. he gets shoved down my throat so much. with like yuta/john/winwin it’s obvious they’re sort of filler members that has their own respective charms that supposedly contribute to the group. but with jw it’s like they don’t think he’s a filler. has idolsona on lock though! good for him i suppose. “think he’s snoopy. he’s not” is my favorite description of him
- marklee : well. he is mark lee. i can’t dislike him. very endearing. and THAT is his idolsona. his proximity to haechan makes him hard to dislike too ngl like i’d just be miserable so i am team mark lee.
- haechan : MY PERFECT IDOLLL. sorry that he has everything. do not want to use the word “ace” because wow sunflowers run that shit to the ground. but truly all rounder idol in MY eyes and an underrated fansign darling <3 doesn’t get requests to meow and bark but has done very pudu like things i suppose and bear ears. which sfs have convinced themselves is better than asking ur idol to bark but like if i had money to burn maybe i WOULD make my bias bark. HIS IDOLSONA IS GREAT he is here to STAY! he just needs friends outside of dream and also get on instagram. but we still have years to go <3

random dream observations cause im too lazy to list out members

- you must be delusional if you think nomin is musically gifted. they are here to be fansign boyfriends and sexy performers on stage. i had to put this in bc i saw a jaem fan say they can’t wait for producers to contact jaemin for a collab. PRODUCERS? perhaps you mean casting directors. okay maybe jeno does like music more than jaemin but still. they are visual idols. im in love with jaemin’s face
- chenle doesn’t even feel like he’s attached to being an idol. he’s good at being an idol but maybe even more perfect just being like. a celebrity. truly feeling like he’d only renew contracts purely cause of dream. also he wants a gf (mark) so bad. i’m so convinced he’s gonna be the first one to date. does he even have gf fans that would drop him because of that?
- jisung (WHO HAPPENS TO BE MY 2ND BIAS IN THE SAME PODIUM AS TAEYONG) is also my baby. he’s got this shit on lock guys. i mean he kind of has to he gave up his whole childhood for this. his first lifeisms is there because he is a good idol. he’s watched and learned a lot and i feel like he knows not to do stuff. also insane fansign boyfriend. like his noona fans? over the roof it’s crazy. now i know jisung fans hate when being a maknae is painted out as part of his personality but it LITERALLY IS IN HIS DNA sorry you can’t separate it. like not in the way u can separate haechan & his maknae role. jisung is THE maknae. even when he’s gonna be a hyung. it’s not even a bad thing
- have nothing to say abt renjun. personally the two toned hair did everything to me i had renjun illness for a week. would maybe leave sm for w successful career in china but like he likes kpop so much. and dream emotional manipulation

that is all for my unstructured rambles…do the silly people in my phone get what i’m trying to convey? well no one is reading anyways <3 tldr; be a dreamzen but u have to like 127 but dislike 127 at the same time. yes it makes sense. haechan 💛